Feeling the Flow of Your Intuition

Now when I close my eyes, I see trees and I become this tree rooted in the earth. I feel a stability running through me, unlike ever before. I finally stand on my own two feet. When I walk into a new opportunity or decision, I feel the love and support of my female ancestors supporting me and my big ideas. They support the feminine energy I am exploring. The ability to just be. They themselves lived in the masculine energy, in the doing. As I write this tonight, I am listening to healing Gregorian chanting and I see myself transform from woman to horse to having wings. I am feeling free. These are all thoughts and experiences I did not make space for before. Now, as I sit in the sacred space I have created in my bedroom, I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I was always a creative! I had this freedom I was chasing and now I found it. I cannot let it go. I will just be in the energy, in this flow, in this passion and fullness. 

As we were driving from our in-laws tonight, my oldest said, “Mama, my bucket is full”! I know exactly what he means, my heart swells with gratitude, peace and trust. I wrote my gratitude list tonight and sighed off: I could keep going...only gratitude. Thank you Universe, God, Spirit, Goddesses, Ancestors, Archangels for the love. For liberating me and showing me that what I thought was my path, was only the stepping stones to something greater and bigger, the fullest me. As I joined the corporate world after finishing my Master’s, I was ready to climb the corporate ladder and join the vertical climb of society. As I write this book, I know my life is beautiful and I know so much is going to take form over my life. But what’s better than all of this, is that I am now on a horizontal development path. I know I am exactly where I am supposed to be. It is my time to activate and liberate all my talents through conversations, exploration and being. It feels like I hold the key and I unlock my own doors. I have taken responsibility of my past, present and future. I understand that only I control the outcome. The world is an ever changing place and I am my own constant. The way I wake up, speak to others, and the energy I share with others. I go to bed with gratitude and peace in my heart. 

This was not always the case, I used to dread Mondays, lived in the hard, didn’t make enough, wasn’t fully passionate about what I was doing, drank too much on Fridays to wash away the week. I let myself be the supporting actress to my own life movie. I did not act like the lead. I let people make decisions and take actions for me. I am no longer available for that. What changed? So many things that made an impact from: early morning practice, living from gratitude, visualizations, centering prayer, powerful conversations, coaches, ...most importantly motherhood.